Hurry up and wait… Seems to always be Gods timing, or at least in my life. Not sure if you can relate. We are taught to just wait on the Lord. Well the Lord and I do not see eye to eye on his time schedule. But then again that might have something to do with my stupid decisions. He says how can he trust us with a lot when we don’t even take care of the small gifts he gives us. Yep, that’s me. Ungrateful and take things for grant it. Well I use to anyway and probably still do to a point but at least I’d like to think I’m becoming more aware of my ungratefulness….
So what’s this got to do with baking a cake? It’s a metaphor for what we all do and want. We want what we want and we want it yesterday!!! We do not want to have to work for it or God forbid, wait for it. Most of the time we are not ready or prepared for what we think we want. God sees it but we don’t or won’t. It’s like mixing the baking mix for a cake, throwing it in the oven for five minutes and wanting it now!!!! We try to take it out and throw some icing on it and then wonder why we get sick. All we have is a big pile of goo. The first bite is sweet and oh so good. But quickly that wears off and it starts to make us sick. Eventually we start to get the picture. Takes some of us longer than others. I’m the poster child for that. Got the picture up on the side of the interstate on a billboard.
So if you can’t or won’t get the picture and you keep eating that nasty goo and can’t figure out why you keep getting sick, then I mean hey, what else would a father do. After enough time of letting me make myself sick as a dog, he finally started getting my attention. I think that day we pulled up in the ghetto, was dropped off, and watched my family drive away was the beginning of my wake up. Talk about a lesson in humility and patience. You want me to stay how long in this hell hole? Seriously? ( Yes another of Steve/God seriously moments. We have those quite often.) But he was just getting started in my Marine Corp break me down / build me back up adventure. I was about to learn about baking cakes. Yes baking cakes.
As I have progressed through this life changing time the lessons have developed in my hard head. Looking back time seemed to just disappear. You couldn’t have told me that at the time though. Yes I was learning patience, endurance and how to be tenacious about what’s really important. Maybe I was learning to see the big picture, the end game. As Paul said to finish strong. We are great rabbits but suck at being turtles. We start off great but give up way too easy. But what I’ve learned is that anything worth having is worth waiting for, and worth fighting for.
God gave me so many chances and blessings early on in my life and I blew it. So now he has hit the reset button. Defibrillated my dead life. Mistakes? Most would say so. I had rather look at them as hard lessons. Lessons it took me going through a lot of heart ache to learn. The lessons keep coming and I still want my cake now sometimes, but I have to sit back and realize that it’s going to worth the wait and effort. Even my overall life is still baking. I just need to make sure the right ingredients are in it.
Hurry up and wait? It sucks but that’s life. Be patient, tenacious and persevere! And yes, wait on the Lord, he just might be waiting on you to do that…..
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